Showing posts with label Sunday Scribblings. Show all posts
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Saturday, August 16, 2008

Sunday Scribblings - Observations

Shanty

There was once a wise old man who lived on his own in the thickest part of the woods. Everyone could tell he was extremely wise because he had such a very long beard. And besides you have to be wise to be able to live on your own and survive in the middle of the woods. We’ll be back to see him soon.

Our story opens on the morning of a long summer day, the sort of day that makes one skip and jump just to be. A very blithe summer morning indeed. But what do we see but a young girl sitting weeping. This is not the skipping and jumping we would expect from someone so young and so beautiful on such a day.

We approach and see that her mother has come to comfort her.

“Come on Angela cut that out will you? We’ve got to be off very soon you know.”

“But Mum! Can’t you see I’m shaking in my boots.” (She isn’t wearing boots of course, this is a lovely summer morning). “I had that dreadful dream again last night and I am so frightened that its going to come true. Do let me stay home today.”

“Don’t be absurd. Whoever heard of such a thing?” (This woman clearly has no idea what sort of story she is in!)

“Mum, you know that Violet had the very same dream and after the third time she disappeared.”

“What I know is that Violet was a very silly girl and ran away because she was frightened of a dream. That doesn’t mean the dream itself came true!” (Ah but cause and effect are so hard to tell, especially in stories... and life).

“Could we go to see Uncle Benjamin, Mum? You know he is very wise and if he tells me the dream won’t come true I’ll believe him.” (Young woman you are on dangerous territory - you do realise you are implying that your mother is not wise... and that you will believe anything that someone with a very long beard tells you!)

Her mother looks at her and for once allows some compassion to come through instead of all her rush and hurry. She smiles at this young woman, so recently just a girl and quite often still as vulnerable. She also realises that this might be the only way to get Angela to move.

“Okay, we’ll call in on him on our way back. You know we’ve got to be in Mirthton by ten this morning.”

Their trip to the town is successful, their shopping satisfying and as their purchases are all being sent on by carrier they are free to find their own way home through the thick woods, instead of along the well-trodden, well-populated roads. It is twilight by the time they reach the thickest part of the woods. (This is where the background music ought to be ever so slightly chilling.)

“Is this where Uncle Benjamin lives?” (Are we there yet?)

“I’m not sure, its such a very long time since I came to see him. And you do know he’s not really your uncle don’t you? I meant to mention it before - you are quite old enough now not to call him that.” (Indeed, most middle-aged or even old men are going to prefer to think themselves only a year or two older than such a beautiful young woman, its only little girls that charm by calling them uncle!)

There is a slow deep rumbling, like thunder only more continuous and with no flashes of light. It is now very dark and gloomy in this the thickest part of the woods.

Angela and her mother prudently hold each others hands, not of course because either is actually frightened herself but knowing it will give comfort to the other, and may avoid their becoming separated in such deep, dark woods. (Scaredy cats!)

All of a sudden they are in a clearing by an old shanty. There is Benjamin the wise old man sitting on a rocking chair snoring away. On his lap is a big fluffy marmalade cat. It opens its eyes just to let them know its not really asleep but closes them again to let them know it’s not such a scaredy cat as they are. Somewhat hastily they drop each other's hands.

Angela gets a sudden fit of shyness and her mother realises that she’ll have to wake the old man herself. (Good idea, we’ve no idea that he’s really wise enough to know whether he is properly awake or still dreaming and we wouldn’t want to narrate what might happen if he thinks he’s dreaming about such a beautiful, even nubile, young woman as Angela!)

“Hello, Benjamin. Good evening, sir.” she says.

There is no response.

A little louder.

“Ahem. Cooeee! Benjamin! Helloooo! Wakey wakey!”

The old man stirs. “Just two pints today please” he says and goes straight back to sleep.

Angela looks at her mother. Her mother looks back at her. They think this rather odd. Angela goes up to the shanty and knocks loudly on the door.

“Oh, erm... is it Friday? So sorry my good man. The milk money is on the ledge.”

He says all this but is still not really awake. No-one could mistake Angela for the milkman at this stage in her life. Later maybe.... but that would take a very wise man indeed to guess... not that she’s going to have a sex change, but she will, in 20 years or so, be working delivering milk. That however is a completely different story and it seems very, very unlikely that this snoring old man is being truly prescient.

Angela draws her mother away. And whispers:

“I thought this was the thickest, darkest part of the woods - how on earth does he get milk delivered here? And where does he get money from?” (A very good point, I’m glad she noticed before I had to make it even more obvious.)

Angela walks around the shanty and discovers that on the other side is a neat little path that goes straight up to the road. Her mother is all amazement. They decide to go home and leave wisdom to sleep its sound and well-deserved sleep.

After they have gone, still in his sleep the old man says:

“I’m sorry to say your dream does indeed mean ill-fortune. And the only way to avert it is...” But I stopped listening here as Angela has gone and it was only relevant to her.



I hope you enjoyed this little story with added observations. For different interpretations of this theme go to Sunday Scribblings - Observations.




The No Diet Diet


I'm on day 4 of the No Diet Diet and finding it extraordinary. Yesterday I avoided all hot drinks and noticed a tremendous urge to put the kettle on, even though I was quite happily drinking cold water, my habit of drinking hot water kept on attempting to reassert itself. And today I've been much more aware as I switch on the kettle. Its fine to have a hot drink, its the habit and the knock-on habits that are the problem.

Things I have done differently so far:
  • Swapped sides of the bed, in fact we've alternated since buying the book on Tuesday
  • Sat in a different chair to eat
  • Had a neighbour round for a meal for the first time - we'd kept on saying sometime but never fixing a date, now its actually happened. (Thanks to Jim for all the cooking xxx)
  • Tried a new treatment - Hopi Ear Candling - I didn't especially like or dislike it but it was something different. My neighbour has also tried this in the past and loves it, says she finds it very relaxing. and that she finds it especially useful before long-haul flights.
  • My computer is in yet another place in the house.
  • As well as all the daily challenges so far.
It is a lot more fun than any food based diet!

The oddest thing in some ways is that I've had plenty of days in the past when I've done different things or abstained from doing things I otherwise do habitually. The big difference here is being so aware that I'm on the look out for habits and their knock-on habits; noticing the stirrings of the whole habitweb. Its having the awareness at this level, not that of a single habit, but the whole network of habits that is the important difference for me. And of course the continually doing different things, not just substituting one habit for another...

It makes me feel much lighter.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Sunday Scribblings - Passion

image - 'choosing sides' by Don Solo

Over at Sunday Scribblings the prompt this week is Passion.

My, not so, secret passion is that of playing with synchronicities... and I also love making art even though this blog hasn't seen much of it recently. So imagine what happened when Imelda, the GreenishLady, introduced me to the idea of album covers randomly generated via visits to three separate sites. Here was instant, if slightly mechanical, synchronistic art! All that's left for the budding album designer to do is select their fonts...

My only problem with it was that I always feel the need to respect people's copyright wishes and so I was very pleased when my first attempt came up with an image that was almost usable, I contacted its owned and got permission to use it here.

I played with the idea some more but was frustrated by the sheer number of unusable images that were coming up using the original search. Then I found this search. It produces a single random image from flickr's most interesting images over the last week and, joy of joys, it only picks ones which allow reuse with alterations. And so I've been indulging my passion. And here are the results!

The image at the top of this post, of the rather mechanical looking guys with an American football, are accompanied by the band name of "Gerald Salton Award". This is an award which the Association for Computing Machinery (ACM) offers. Once, long ago, I worked in computing. I never belonged to the ACM though I went to some of their conferences. A couple of days before I made this cover, out of the blue, I got an invite to join the ACM - and I've not had any contact with anyone in it for 12 years at least! Couple this with the title that came up "More apt for passion" and the Sunday Scribblings prompt of passion and you'll see why I thought I'd better emerge and show you the rest of my collection.

You would like to see my imaginary record collection wouldn't you?

Oh go on. Its not like you have to traipse up to my garret and sit in an unheated room whilst I play you weird music is it?

And its not like offering to show you my etchings is it? Well maybe it is... but only a little...

Antithyra brings you See what was there. Image, Sunset, supplied by Mor (bcnbits)

It does seem to me to be worth seeing what is there... and I love that image to go with it. What do you think a leaky boat that is still afloat might mean? I've no idea but I wonder...

So everything was going swimmingly (;-) as I played this game when up came:

Still no future brings you "life isn't for everyone". With a beautiful image Three of a Kind, by mat.teo

Not very cheerful.

That night and last night I caught the beginning of Radio 4's Moral Maze where this week they were discussing suicide!

Add to that a rather morbid thought I had as I was bringing the washing downstairs. I was suddenly thinking about two of my friends who have died before they were 50 (Lee and Stefek). The phrase, "those the gods love, die young" came to me. I then put the washing basket down and caught my hand, painfully, on a a pair of wastepaper bins that had been left there to be emptied. These two bins are ones that we had recently been using as buckets to catch drips from something that was leaking... (though it wasn't a boat). I don't normally lash out at inanimate objects but this time I did. My foot contacted them and to my surprise I broke both of them. Later I realised I'd kicked the bucket - twice!

Luckily this was my next cover:

Whew! There is time enough! Thank goodness for that! But what about this:

Punjabi Cuisine sings "Our Adversaries Are INSANE". Image, Kinderdijk. by Pσrcelαΐηgΐrl°

This reminds me of Don Quixote. And it wasn't the first reminder I'd had of it recently either. I don't know the story well but it does seem to be about illusion and disillusion. Sanity and insanity? Though how can one tell if one is sane... (and don't say anyone sane would stop at one album...)


So does it make sense to build a furnace near ice? Maybe. And besides yesterday I went to a glass blowing factory and actually saw (and felt the heat of) furnaces whilst they made glass things... glass is a lot like ice isn't it?

The full quote which that title came from was:
A viler evil than to murder a man, is to sell him suicide as an act of virtue. A viler evil than to throw a man into a sacrificial furnace, is to demand that he leap in, of his own will, and that he build the furnace, besides.
Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged. Part2, III
US (Russian-born) novelist (1905 - 1982)
So we are back with suicide again... thanks...


This one is back to the ice theme again. It was the rich which are the scum of the earth in every country according to Chesterton... Once upon a time, unless one lived amongst snow, skiing was a rich persons occupation. These days though almost everyone seems to go... except of course the starving... and the truly poor.... so maybe it is still a definition of richness?

Surely its time for a fun album?


Although this might seem to be a little lighter than the others that quote in full is:
Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.
George Bernard Shaw
Irish dramatist & socialist (1856 - 1950)
Okay I can take a hint, as long as its repeated often enough, so lets get serious about this...

Anthrax (the disease not the band), presents "The stars and sun". Image is "OSA Sunset #2" by peter bowers
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, and to work, and to play, and to look up at the stars and sun.
Henry Van Dyke
Truly life and death are different sides of the same coin. Without one we do not have the other. One's death is guaranteed from the moment life starts. We maintain our life only by bringing death to other life forms, its all part of the cycle of life. And if we take it a step further maybe there is case for saying one's death is imminent from the the moment you were first thought of:

The rather cumbersomely named band: University of Kentucky College of Design have just released "You First Thought Of". Image, The Phoenix Palm Rises From Ashes by JPhilipson

Are we into reincarnation now? Or maybe Intelligent Design... I'm certainly amazed at what comes up at random... have I strayed into the twilight zone?

The tools of conquest do not necessarily come with bombs and explosions and fallout. There are weapons that are simply thoughts, attitudes, prejudices -- to be found in the minds of men. For the record, prejudices can kill and suspicion can destroy, and a thoughtless, frightened search for a scapegoat has a fallout all its own -- for the children and the children yet unborn. And the pity of it is that these things cannot be confined to the Twilight Zone.
Rod Serling
US actor, producer, & screenwriter (1924 - 1975)
By now, if you have come this far, and I bet very few of you have stayed the course, you will be hoping for something to cure me of this passion:

At my lemonade stand I used to give the first glass away free and charge five dollars for the second glass. The refill contained the antidote.
Emo Phillips
US comedian
To make your own album covers:

1. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first article title on the page is the name of your band.

2. www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

3. Find a random interesting photo on flickr that allows manipulation using this link: mikelietz.org/code/flickr-ccgettr.php

If you put it up on flickr then do tag it: "cd cover meme" and add it to the CD cover meme group.

More Sunday Scribblings inspired by Passion.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Sunday Scribblings - Sleep (and / or Teeth)

Bird Brain?

Over at Sunday Scribblings the explanation behind this prompt is:
In honor of Natalie Goldberg, who I am going to hear speak tonight about her new book, I have chosen a prompt from one of her old books, Wild Mind. Here, in her words: "An area not written about much -- but which once thought of becomes a rich vein -- is sleep. Try it. Write about sleep patterns, sleepless nights, sleeping in the day; how two brothers sleep together, two lovers; sleeping outside, beds you've slept in, sleeping on trips, in foreign countries; no sleep. What is sleep, anyway? It's like the old trick of saying your name over and over again until you don't know it anymore. Sleep is the other half of our life, the underbelly. We should explore it."

As Natalie Goldberg's Wild Mind and also Writing Down the Bones used once to be favourite much used books of mine how could I resist joining in again this week.



Sleep touches me and I fall deep, deep into the the blessed depths of deep, deep sleep

I find myself awake in a dream, knowing that I dream and choosing to continue to dream the dream I'm in

Again I'm falling, tumbling, spinning

With no fear - I do know that I dream - I let myself simply go where the dream takes me

I arrive at what could be an expensive hotel but that I know is a private hospital

Still I refuse to move my body, let the dream take me where it will

I hover through the corridors and into a doctor's room

My body is deposited by two chairs

I wonder which chair is the doctor's chair and which the patients

As its a dream, and I know that I dream, I hold this thought but do not act on it

Now I am lying on a couch
The doctor has arrived

He is dressed in a blue boiler suit
He looks like a plumber
He take a screwdriver and uses it to inspect my feet

He says "The quantum threshold of the ganglia has reached a base point,
"We will have to operate with an acetylene high oxy-propo-butane transformer,
"Its clear that the psycho-physiological bubble is about to burst"

Finally I say:

"You don't expect me to believe any of that do you?"

He says nothing and motions with some plumber's tool towards my feet

"Well at least you got me to speak." I say

"I'd better get changed" he says

He returns wearing a tweed suit, looking every inch the country doctor,

Except that he is wearing rose-tinted spectacles.

"Hold this" he says handing me a bottle of snake oil.
He is leering above me and I'm feeling uneasy yet hopeful too.

The dream fades into black.
I am still aware.
I know I'm asleep.
I hear the body breathing.
I feel the body asleep.
I wait for the next dream.

I'm swept up into the clouds. I'm flying. I am still lucid and still choosing to be passive. A passive component of my dream. In recent lucid dreams any intentional action has broken the dream and sent me straight to the black space between dreams. This is the only way, at the moment, that I can maintain both dream and lucidity.

I let the dream carry me to the top of a mountain.
There I fall asleep in the dream and let myself just dream once more.



More Sunday Scribblings on sleep and/ or teeth.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Sunday Scribblings - Fridge Space



Inside my fridge, very little lives
It is dark, except when I open the door
Inside my fridge, are too many olives
They smell like sweat, and Mediterranean gore


A tiny poem for this week's Sunday Scribblings prompt of "Fridge Space" which appealed to me because on flickr last month, a group I enjoy, called the Monthly Scavenger Hunt, had on its list - "Inside my fridge" so I had the illustration already!

The other image that it brings to mind for me is the David Bowie song, Space Oddity, about Major Tom:
Here am I sitting in a tin can
Far above the world
Planet Earth is blue
And there's nothing I can do.


Its the tin can that does it and the cold fridginess of space... brr...



I know its ages since I Scribbled along with Sunday Scribblings, and I'm not promising to become more regular either! Read more posts inspired by "Fridge Space".

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Dream Journey

Sunday Scribblings is up to 50 this week and I've not responded to one in ages. I was delighted to see such a great prompt and will celebrate their fiftieth by writing a story... some of which is true... but I'll leave it up to you to decide which parts those might be.


Lost on Everest

Once upon a time there was a little girl who at the age of four years 10 months, 3 weeks and 6 days was sent to school for the first time. They told her to sit still. They told her to do as she was told. They told her and told her...

It didn't take much of this before the part of her that was used to being outdoors and free all the time decided she'd had enough. This part, who called herself, Ariadna, said "Knickers to this" - and up and left, leaving Henna behind.

Henna who didn't even know that "knickers", or indeed any other word, could be used like this, plodded on with her school work; she grew strong but rather placid. She went to college, doing well academically - probably far better than she would if she'd still had Ariadna with her.

Her life was quite normal, she worked until she met a man called Valentine; they married and settled down. And that could have been that.

Meanwhile Ariadna was off as fast as the wind could carry her. She played and frolicked in the breeze - laughing with the trees and tickling the birds. She was soon completely lost and unable to find her way home. She sat on mountain tops and sighed with the breeze - oh what a joy it was to be alive and free!

At first being lost did not worry her - she knew Henna would be going to school and doing exactly what she was told - not something Ariadna had any intention of ever doing. Time passed and after over forty years of this disembodied life Ariadna was longing to feel what it was like to actually have a body again. Ariadna longed for Henna.

And Henna, though she didn't remember Ariadna at all, responded to this longing and began to miss her too.

Why was her life so staid, so placid, so normal? Had she really been born for this? Everyone said she was going through a mid-life crisis but then they didn't know about Ariadna.

Henna started to experiment with alternative healing. She saw all manner of therapists and counselors - anyone who promised increased wholeness. She longed to feel complete. She met much sympathy and many lovely people yet nothing helped.

Valentine watched and began to worry. He loved Henna but could tell something was wrong. Then he began to have strange dreams.

He spent all night searching. He didn't know what or who he was looking for, yet he searched. He trudged through snow fields, he walked up and down mountains and explored all the lonely places he had ever heard of.

Meanwhile Henna had at last found someone who could tell her what was wrong. A wise woman explained that she had lost part of her soul but all her attempts to bring it back failed.

A diagnosis but no cure.

Now Henna also began to have dreams. She was always on a high mountain - on top of the world, above everything else and happy to be there. She told Valentine she thought maybe her lost soul fragment was on Everest.

He told her that he kept on dreaming that he was climbing mountains and silently he vowed to search Everest itself.

In order to incubate dreams of Everest he read all he could on it and about all the expeditions that had succeeded or failed, he knew the routes well. On his holidays he walked in Scotland, but in his dreams he was in Nepal.

One night he was sure he'd almost got to the summit of Everest but they had to turn back because of the poor visibility. He and his friends descended and debated on whether to stay at the Youth Hostel that was now conveniently placed for final ascents. They decided it was too dangerous stay - every minute at that altitude you are dying much faster than normal.

Next day Henna asked if he'd been to Everest recently and he related his dream.

He mentioned both the mist and the youth hostel.

Later in the day whilst sorting out his photographs he pointed out Ben Nevis.

He called it the whale-backed mountain.

"It usually has its own little cloud above it but here you can see it out of the mist."


"It's the highest mountain in Scotland isn't it?" asked Henna.

"In the whole of Britain - you could call it the Everest of the UK."

"Is there a youth hostel on Ben Nevis?"

"Yes - and its probably about as far from the top as the one in my dream had been from Everest's"

They looked at each other sure that at last the problem had been solved. How would someone who had only spent one hour in school know the difference between Everest and Ben Nevis?

That night he visited Ben Nevis. He found Ariadna and brought her back safely to Bristol. When he woke up he saw that his wife was changed. So subtle that no-one else would be able to tell but in his mind he re-named her "Whole Woman" and thought he'd better make sure he was ready for her to start joining him on his mountain climbs.


All the photographs used here come from my husband, Jim's, walks in Scotland. This year he is hoping to finish "bagging the Munros" which means he will have climbed all the mountains in Scotland over 3000 ft. There are 279 Munros and he has 10 left to go.


More Sunday Scribblings - Dream Journeys.